My biggest Fear

What is your biggest fear? Being alone? failed at something? losing your loved one?

or.....

fear of God? (YA SAMA MALIH)
fear of Ghost? (IYA BANGET WOY GUE JUGA)

Well... i just mentioned several things that human might be scared or afraid of.

then.. do you know what is my biggest fear beside god and ghost? lol

Lemme tell you dis, my biggest fear is afraid of not having a choice. I'm afraid that i wake up someday knowing that i don't have any other option or choices to be choose. I have no alternate way beside just undergo what in front me. 

For some people, choice is the biggest challenge in their life. Choice is something that should be avoided, because we are afraid of making bad choice. Choice is about the life and death deal. Choice is about "i'm gonna winning this time" or "i'm gonna be broke by tomorrow". You know... even your bad choice is your gift, your blessing, your lesson, your privilege, because not everyone has that! When you have a choice it means you have power. You have the full authority of your life decision. You have consent to say yes or no, to take or not, to get in that school or not.

Meanwhile, some people were raised without their participation in choosing what they want in their life i.e : they cannot choose whether they want to continue study or not. Because they are poor, they are disabled, no one hands them help then they have to face whatever life leads them even in the worst scenario, without any betterment. I believe you've seen any real life example of people who born and died poor. So who's fault it is? Idk man but i believe it's not their choice either and i believe sometimes god makes an example of bad fated people. I do believe it until now even though, i also seen many unfortunate people with all of their disability and limit they still strive for better quality of living and succeed on their way.

Another story is when people actually have a choice. But their conditions tell them to say so (that they don't have). By the way i'm writing this based on my social experience when i met many mother on my way to work or home where they are pregnant but they still have to get in crowd of Bus transjakarta which it can harm her, or young mother with 2 toddlers have to go by commuter line where she have to carry a bag full of things while carrying her kids. It's a sad truth that shows they don't have a choice. They don't have a choice for taking any other vehicles. Maybe they have, but they cannot even put it as "choice". They don't have any choice given by their husband (if any). Or do you ever ask people from Bogor or Bekasi who are taking train to busan trip everyday, why they still taking that shitty public transportation when they can't even feel their feet on train. When they might be taking more "humane" public transportation. They do have choice, but they closed other choices because simply other choices not as cheap as taking zombie train.

The conclusion is don't be a person without choice and if you don't have choice then make it! Cause choices will always be there. You create a room for yourself to be capable of having choice. That is what makes your life more meaningful and you'll get challenges and that challenges is what makes you the person you are.